After the "run" on Wednesday night, where I ran 0.6 miles and walked 1.4 miles, I came home and wrote a post to vent my frustration. I then elected not to publish it until I had time to come down from that frustration. When I came home from the run - Mark and Avery were eagerly awaiting my return....
|Really, they are dreaming about my return - honest.|
What I am realizing about myself - is that I push myself VERY HARD. I always have. I usually set goals that are a stretch, but reachable. Train for a half marathon (for example). Sometimes, I get frustrated regardless of logic. I.e. when I cried after I got an 85 on a Calculus exam. I.e. When I'm frustrated that I can't run 2 miles (not even slowly) 5 weeks postpartum.
I quit running when I was 5.5 months pregnant. I have been EAGER to get back out there and run again. The fact that I've lost so much cardio conditioning is disheartening. To need to put all that initial work back in...it's easy to get down on myself for failing to keep up the cardio during the 3rd trimester.
I know that this isn't reasonable. I just pushed a baby out of my girly parts not even 6 weeks ago. I should NOT expect to be running marathons....or apparently, even 2 miles. That doesn't mean that I don't WANT to. To go out for a run now is also so much more difficult. I have to plan for where Avery will be while I do my run. (She's still too little for the jogging stroller.) The pre-run effort required makes it easier to get frustrated when things don't go the way I want them to, reasonable or not. I suspect the more minimal sleep experiences these days aren't helping reason win out as well.
I need to remind myself, constantly, that every little bit of exercise, strength training and cardio that I add back in is making a difference - even if I can't FEEL that difference yet. That I have TIME to get back into shape and lose weight and train for marathons and mountains.
|Posing in my "weighted vest".|
If I can't run 2 miles by the end of next month - THAN I can let myself get worried. Right now, I need to just remind myself "baby steps."
Have you ever had to come back from a forced running/exercise hiatus? What worked for you? Did you have to deal with similar frustration?