Getting Older

Fair warning:  This is not a happy post.  Proceed at your own risk.

The best thing about having a sister was that I always had a friend.  

-Cali Rae Turner

Getting Older.  It's something we all do.  We have a birthday every year, we celebrate what our lives have brought that year.  Typically, we celebrate with family.

My sister, Shana, and I.  Laughing.

Today, I should be celebrating with my sister Shana.  Today, I should tease her because she is turning 29.  I should be able to tease her about getting old and in one more year, she'll be the dreaded 30.  Because we all know, she would have teased me about how old I was when I turned 30.

And, she would say, "And yet, I'm still younger than you!"

Instead, I spent last night freaking out about getting a run in today despite the weather forecast, because I know I won't make it through the day without that run.  Instead, I'm wishing I'd HAD those extra ten years of teasing from my sister.  (Or am I missing the extra ten years I should have been teasing her?).

I didn't always tease her.  I was actually quite protective of her.

It's sad for me to think that I have a lot of really close friends now that never even met my sister.  They never got to be on the receiving end of one of her well timed sarcastic remarks.  They never got to be the victims of the Mandy-Shana spades duo.  They never got to sit quietly in the car afraid to move while I threatened to throw my sister out for badmouthing my favorite Supreme Court Justice.

In a month, I'll run my first marathon.  My sister won't be the obnoxious short girl in the feather boa, tutu and cowbells cheering like a maniac as I come around a corner.  But, she would have been.  

Shana wearing ALL her Christmas Gifts one year.

Unfortunately, nine and half years ago, my sister Shana chose to take her own life at the age of 19.  It's still the worst day of my life.  I miss her every single day.  These days, most of the days, it's a simple sort of missing:  "Shana would've loved this", or "Shana would've hated that."

Today, not so much.  Today, it's "Avery would've loved her crazy Aunt Shana".
It's "Shana should have thanked me in an academy award speech by now".   All of them thought with copious amounts of tears.  It's not fair that Avery has to grow up without all the crazy experiences and opinions Shana would have exposed her to.  It's not fair that I don't have my sister to call when I've just had a bad day and need someone to snap me out of it.

I hate knowing that I am a very different person today than I was the last time I spoke with my sister.  Would she even recognize the woman I've become?

Happy Birthday Little Sister.  I love you so much.  And my heart breaks whenever I focus on the fact that you simply aren't here.

Shana and I, Summer 1996.

There is no substitute for the comfort supplied by the utterly taken-for-granted relationship.

- Iris Murdoch 

Virginia Beach RNR Recap

Race: Virginia Beach RNR Half Marathon
Distance:  13.1 miles
Date:  September 2, 2012, 7:30am start
Finish time:  2:35:40
What sets this race apart:  Part of the Rock N Roll Marathon Series

Labor Day weekend, I got on a plane to travel to a race for the first time.  (We drove the last time I went to an out-of-state race).  I also left the baby overnight for the first time!

I traveled with two of my training buddies, Lynne and Laurie.  We shared a suite at the Holiday inn that had two queen beds and a pull out couch...and our patio doors opened onto the beach!

Sunrise from our room the first morning

We flew in Friday night and attended the race expo on Saturday.  I have to say, the major benefit of big races may be the expo goodies.  It was truly one of the best expos I've ever gone to.  Usually, I could care less about expos.  I don't know if it was because this was a race-cation, because I was kid-free, or what, but I really had fun!  I purchased a few things, enjoyed lots of freebies, and even did the silly photo shoots!

Yes, that is tuna fish.
I neglected to place the purchased items in the photo, these are the freebies.

...and I got to see the Goofy medals in person!  The photos just didn't do them justice.

Laurie and I will both be traveling to Florida for the Goofy in January

As we left the Expo, we all commented on how HOT and HUMID it was.  Unfortunately, it was a little bit of a race-day-weather preview!

We had some hiccups when it came to finding a place for dinner the night before the race, leaving all of us a bit dissatisfied with our meal.  We also walked many more miles looking for a spot than we'd really intended.  Once I got my spaghetti at the place we settled on, the sauce actually TASTED oily.  I opted to not finish the meal, and wound up eating wheat thins for dinner when I got back to the hotel.

I actually slept decently the night before the race, and I had my usual pre-run breakfast.  (I packed my granola cereal, wise decision).  Nonetheless, I had some GI issues that morning.  We made two port-a-potty stops pre-race, and both times I was doing more than peeing.  (TMI?)  I also had a bit of a dehydration headache and drank an EXTRA bottle of water at the start line. (I'd already drank 16.9 oz before leaving the hotel).  I also felt the need to take a second salt pill.  Before. The. Race. Even. Started.

We all started in the same corral, which gave us some nice photo ops!

Gotta love those early morning starts!

I started the race exactly how I wanted to, a little on the slower side of my race pace to get warmed up, then I settled in around a 10:30-10:45 min/avg.  I had decided I was going to walk through all the hydration stops to make sure I stayed hydrated.
Mile 1: 11:00
Mile 2: 10:27
Mile 3: 10:38
Mile 4: 11:07
Mile 5: 11:04
Mile 6: 11:15
Somewhere around mile 2, I felt like I needed to take a GU, but I didn't.  Big mistake.  The water stops were fairly far apart for a hot race, so by the time I made it to the next water stop and took a GU, I was already starting to feel pretty bad.  I was still on pace to make my race goals, but began to re-evaluate.  Based on how I was feeling, and the heat, continuing at that pace would not have been smart for my health and overall marathon training.  I started walking slower through the water stops and taking both water and Gatorade.
Mile 7: 12:10
Mile 8: 12:25
Mile 9: 12:59
This is where everything blew up.  After walking through the mile 7 water stop and gagging on the GU I attempted to take, I kept walking even after I was done with the water stop.  Mentally?  That was the first sign of game over.  In mile 8, I got the first concrete symptoms of heat stroke and realized that I wasn't going to make a PR.  I started walking in earnest, and embarrassingly, pulled out my cell phone to send  a few text messages.  I sent my husband a message saying that I wouldn't PR and that I was walking.  I sent my friend Lynne a message that I was walking and waiting for her and Laurie to catch up to me.  Enter the self-abusing thoughts.  I questioned whether or not I was really a runner if I couldn't even run a half marathon without walking, I questioned whether or not I should keep training for a full marathon, and I called myself an idiot for signing up for the Goofy Challenge in January.
Mile 10: 13:35
Mile 11: 12:02
Mile 12: 12:30
Mile 13: 12:34
Last bit: 9:27
Garmin distance: 13.21 miles.
During mile 11 is where Lynne caught up with me.  I ran with her for a bit, before telling her to go ahead and walking a bit more.  What made it especially hard to get motivated is that most of the people around me were also walking.  It was just that hot.  The heat index was 95 at the end of the race.

But a free post-race slurpee makes everything better!

What did I learn?  Heat is my kryptonite.  Of course, I already knew that.  It didn't help that we'd had a couple of cooler weeks in Ohio before traveling to this race.  I also learned, if I am going to sign up for a race that has potential race temperatures in this heat range, I need to do some of my summer training in the afternoon, instead of doing all of it before the sun rises.  This will allow me to be better heat acclimated.

What I liked about the race?

• Great swag
• Great post-race refreshments: Gatorade bottles, chocolate milk, oranges, popsicles, slurpees and more
• The bands on the course were pretty decent.
• Flat - only hill was the overpass, which we did both directions.
• The expo
• The themed neighborhoods.
• Post race concert

What I found disappointing?

• The frequency of the water stops and how well they did or did not keep up with the crowds.  I did manage to get water at each stop without terrible delays, and even got a second cup to dump on my head at several.  I felt they were too far apart given the temperatures that day.
• The crowd.  I love big races, but this race never thinned out.  And with the heat and how many people turned to walking, it made navigation tougher.
• The weather.  Hotter than normal, but not outside the range of average for VB that time of year.  Note to self: check that when signing up for a race next time.
• The medal ribbon.  The medal itself is pretty awesome, the ribbon takes away from it.
• For a rock and roll event, I expected more bands.  It seemed like there are actually more on-course entertainers at both of the big races in Columbus, OH.
• My performance.  Not going to lie, I was extremely bummed at how poorly I performed.  I walked as much as I ran those last 5 miles.  It actually felt harder than my 20 mile training run I completed this past Saturday.

Post race ocean celebration!

Jumping into the ocean with Lynne and Laurie after the race was probably my favorite part of the entire trip.  (Although salt water and chafing are not a good combo!)

After lunch, we read by the pool, which was also nice.  Then, we all went parasailing, my first time ever!

We were 1000 feet up!

That night, we saw Train in concert on the beach, which was pretty fun.

Despite a bad race performance, it was a pretty fun girls weekend and a nice break from being a full-time mommy!

~Mandy

Have you ever had a race that just didn't go as planned?  How did you bounce back?

What is your running kryptonite?

Have you ever been parasailing?

Would you rather run a half marathon at the beach or go parasailing?

Training Update: Revisiting College!

Week of Sept 3-9, 2012:

Current Weight: 157.4 (Down 3.0 lbs from previous reported weight!)

Total Lost to date: 63.4 lbs

Monday: Rest day - travel home from Virginia
Tuesday: Ran 5 miles in 55:46, 11:10 min/mile avg
Wednesday: Ran 6 miles in 1:04:37, 10:47 min/mile avg
Thursday: Ran 5 miles in 58:40, 11:47 min/mile avg; ST with Adam
Friday: Rest day
Saturday: Ran 10.2 miles in 1:59:39, 11:21 min/avg
Sunday: Ran 4 miles in 38:52, 9:44 min/avg

For the past couple of months or so, I've been on a plateau with the weight loss.  So, I stopped reporting weigh-ins the past few weeks as I had more fun things to write about, like race reports, or I wasn't writing at all (oops!).

Last week, I weighed in at 164.0 lbs, up about 3 lbs after my first race-cation and partly due to TTOM bloat.  So, supposedly, I lost 6.6 lbs in 1 week!  HA!  I think we can safely say, some of that was water weight.  

Regardless, it's clear that I did lose weight last week and I am officially in the 150's for the first time since college (the first trip).  WOOHOO!

This week was fairly uneventful.  I got back into a routine after my race-cation over labor day, but it was also a fall back week.  Result?  Only 30.2 miles for the week.

The main excitement?  When we started our 10 mile run on Saturday, a front came through, bringing torrential rain and crazy winds.  Still better than the heat from the weekend before!!!  Plus, my running group gave us all free ice cream after the run.  Is there anything better than free ice cream?

Don't we look happy about the ice cream???  :D

I promise a recap of my not-so-stellar performance at the Virginia Beach RnR Half Marathon on labor day weekend will be up before too terribly long.  

The post race dive into the ocean fully clothed made everything worth it though!

I am fighting the toddler battles.  She seems to enjoy falling asleep at various mommy's groups for 20 minutes, and then decides that is enough nap for the entire day.  (news flash - it's not!)

I'll nap if you let me get in the water with this guys mom, promise!

We also recently upgraded our cable (so that we could get the Longhorn Network).  The upside of this?  HBO on Demand.  I am rather enjoying Game of Thrones during the limited naptimes.

Speaking of, time to go rescue the rugrat from the horrible crib monsters that must be eating her!

You're tougher if you drink taco sauce instead of formula, that's what all the studies say.

How is your training going?  Any fun races coming up?

Do you like to run in the rain?

Have you ever jumped into a pool or an ocean fully clothed?